All Roads Lead To Me

Between mean and selfish people,
where feelings have no place to dwell
where emotions have to find an abode to hide
where every expectation becomes a need
where your innocence is taken for granted
where your simplicity is raped every moment

I have to find my light in my God...in myself....
....All roads will lead to me

Nights are long, days just pass by
Mornings are placidly calm, bright sun rays perforating through the misty clouds....and the dew drops on the grass appear like pearls.
As I walk through the day, to embrace the nature into my arms ....evening enfolds into its serene mystery....darkness holds me, evening pauses, pain doesnot lessen, tears no more fall...

But I have to find my light in my God...in myself....
....All roads will lead to me

One more cup of coffee lying on the table
Rain drops strumming their magical song
The water splashing on the window pane
....nostalgia arresting me tight....
my mind still stuck on the diminished note

Then this little girl dancing in the rain outside....
Ignorant of the complexities of a human mind...
Opens her mouth wide under the sky
Smiling away to glory....
Instilling a faith in me....for no reason...:)

And I see a light in myself....All roads lead to me

Smiling on the little things....trivial minds, quibbling matters,
I wave back the time and walk pass ahead.....

All roads led to me!!

Circle

"Everyday from where I go ahead I come back to the same spot again,

The walls I have broken so many times

Are the walls I strike all over again,

Everyday new towns come into being

Everyday the earth subsumes them again,

Earthquakes at least had a heat of their own

Now they just recur over and again.

From the body to the soul an endless desert

No sun, no mirage, no shade,

So many hopes have perished in the desert waste

Who cares a damn for the grave,

The pulse dies and flutters again

The heart's natural attribute is anxiety,

At night the night whispered to itself

To go on living is a habit in itself.

A rainbow is a bouquet of but one colour

A goblet has its own trajectory,

If mosques begin to stand at every corner

What can the shape of the tavern be?

Somebody used to say he is the ocean itself

When not even a drop was with me,

Now I write to all that I'm fine

Now danger too is absent from my destiny,

I read the lines on my palm

Like I would the Koran or the Gita,

In the confines of a few lines

My life is imprisoned like Sita,

When Rama will return I cannot say

If only some Ravana would come and stay."

International Women's Day - 8th March

Though there is no specific day needed to celebrate the integrity of a woman, for she can be celebrated every day, every moment...I still wanted to write about her this day. Gone past is this day now and due to work load I just couldn't squeeze out time to do this.

Just came across a beautiful site so thought to update it here.

http://www.touchninspire.com/woman.html

Hope all the ladies out there did enjoy and feel special and men - u'll feel more special making ur woman feel special :)

In love with love

Have been trying to figure out of late, what actually is this love all about. The unconditional love that we talk abt. The love for which or for whom you start doing almost any damn thing. The love which so madly drives one crazy.This intoxicating thing called love is no less than any madness.You suddenly start doing things that you never had imagined to be doing. Life seems so beautiful.

"Loving you is like
wearing my favourite cozy sweater
sitting quiet in a chair
listening to raindrops
watching the fire
its a clam reality"


You sleep with their thoughts, u get up with their thoughts and the whole day u keep dancing in the wonderland of their thoughts again.


"I lie awake thinking of you
trying to sleep
I dont want to end these thoughts of you
But, tommorrow will come
and I'll awake in your arms
thinking first of you
And I'll wish that I could spend all day wearing your arms around me."


U start liking everything that they like.You slowly become bitterly sweet...wisely fool...sanely insane...insensibily sensible...intelligently dumb.

"I love...
Well, a lot of things.
I dont love, however,
a lot of people.
But I just love you
More than anything!"


No matter how much you have fun with your other friends, u still want to be with them.Then you slowly break away from the rest of the world...loose contacts with almost all your friends. Their very presence makes you feel that your world is with you....and the moment they go, u feel as though your life has left
you.You rejoice in their celebrations, and somber when they are down.With all the follies in them, you still find them to be the perfect one for yourself.
You become so possessive as though you own them.....yes somethng like your parents, whom u own, no matter whatever you tell them, however you tell them, they still love you and you still love them....on the similar lines, this love that I am talking about tries to take the shape of a possessive love, because you feel you have an authority over the person you love.But sometimes due to all this possessiveness, expectations, and the need to be there with you every moment, your love becomes demanding, you love the person so very much that you might even start feeling insecure...but is this actually the unconditional love that I am talking about,because if it is unconditional then why do these expectations, these possessiveness and these insecurities....?We are never insecure for Mom and dad, are we?
ahhh....is this really love or somethng else???


"French kiss the morning
I want to lay down in a bed of roses
I just close my eyes
trying hard to capture the moments....paste them all in an album of memories."


May be this so called love turns into a lovely ego....yes, probably its an ego.....ego in the sense that u want to make ur love work out at any cost, even if u break up, u still want them, may be not for the superficial love that u think u have but just this ego that constantly keeps hitting at the back of your mind. U just dont want to take them off your mind not because they are not
getting out, but may be because u dont want to get them out of your head. Of perhaps you are just in love with the idea of love.
So does that mean that love makes your stubborn and adamant?
Is this called falling in love?Nope I dont think so.....may be, one just needs to rise in love and not fall in love...:)
And may be....
....."Love is not about finding the right person, but creating the right relationship..Its not about how much love u HAVE in the BEGINNING, but how much love u BUILD in the END..."

2005 - A retrospection

hmmm...this post was long overdue......2005 have passed and I havent updated anything here .....but just a little retrospection of how this 2005 had been for me.....

2005 was when.........
when I wrote my last B.E. paper.........
when I passed out of college....
when I made amazing friends.....
when I moved to a new city.....
when I celebrated my 22nd birthday....
when I had fallen in love........

2005 was when
when I made mistakes
when I made life descisions.......
when these decisions turned out to be a tragedy...
when I felt lonely ....
when I learnt to be stronger.....
when I realised that everything happens for a reason.....
when I learnt to cool down my anger.....
when I felt so glad and happy to be the way I am....
when I had serious talks with dad.....
when I cried miserably for myself…….
When I was jobless all the time in office ……..
When I just loitered in and around the streets of Bangalore for no reason...
When I had put budget for the next month (but strictly not following it)....
When I attended those late night calls.......

I guess the list is endless and it would go on and on....life is just full of experiences....and when these experiences are unpredictable, life becomes all the more fun to live.


2006.......one more year.....a year to....
to smile........
to let people know how much u care...
to learn from mistakes.......
to follow dreams.......
to fight against everything for dreams to come true.....
to be more confident.........
to be more strong at heart and mind.....
to enrich knowledge.........
to make others happy.......

....this is again endless.....:)

All The Very Best To Me For The Year to Come.....:)