I hate you!!

"I hate you", said me
For extremities is what I love
And my hate is like none other
As though it was this moment of serendipity
When my blinded eyes could see none but you
Under the abode of my temple
Lay my soul in that cradle of thy sleeve.

Dasvidaniya - not the wish list :)

As usual, these strange thoughts keep flashing across in my mind, may be in everyone's mind and I thought I would blog it down sometime...dint know how :)

Thanks Banjo for the game....I definitely need to play this now!!

Rules of the game : List down 10 random things about yourself (that many do not know) and then tag 5 more people who have to do the same.
I wouldn't be tagging anyone..for I am a lazy bee and second, I do not know how to tag :(

So lets go....10 random things about me :

1) I love watching movies alone. No one can disturb you. You can cry happily and there's no one to ask you what in the scene made you cry :)

2) I love watching myself in the mirror...atleast there's someone to appreciate my beauty!!

3) I love giving beautiful surprises....I do it often....and being surprised in a similar way...which usually doesn't happen

4) I usually love all things that are blue...dark blue...it is mystical, it is calm, it is peaceful, it is cool, it is romantic, it is dynamic, it is powerful......

5) I love being with myself...still being around with hundred others....now how does that happen...ah!! let that be to myself!!

6) I do not like to crib and neither do I like people who crib...somehow I feel such people radiate negative energies.

7) I love speed....have driven an Alto with the speed of 150km/hr....whoops!!! poor thing....the car doesn't go beyond 155 :(

8) I hate to text...thats the reason, I fail to reply to my frnds msgs, hardly chat with frnds, and seldom blog....I feel either call or best would be, just meet up. Nothing can take the place of a face to face chat. Even if you dont speak, you still can say a thousand words!

9) I love to fight and then patch up....it makes you feel closer!

10) Finally, I also loved 7th Feb, 2009....met an old, long, lost, sweet school friend....and had a gala time...Awesome Weekend :)

I can go on and on....but only 10 things for now!!! :)

Dance Dance Dance...

Dance...an expression of the mind, the heart and the soul. An art-form which can liberate you of all your negative energies and radiate all the positives....walk you through the forbidden realms of the inner-self...a pristine form of magic and the highest form of creativity.A reflection of the exquisite beauty within.

"Let me dance to life;

My spirit and soul divine
Rushes of my blood
The flow of my thoughts
Streaming through my mind
Let me dance to life"

It is a form of communication that brings out the innermost feelings and at the same time pervades all aspects of life and bring colour and joy.



Western dance is a part of this global language and its roots run wide and deep. There are many western dance styles like Ballet, Salsa, Rumba, Samba, Belley Dancing, Cha cha cha, Jazz, Hip hop, Jive etc



Ballet serves as a backbone for many other styles of dance, as many other dance genres are based on ballet. Ballet is based on techniques that have been developed over centuries. Ballet uses music and dance to tell stories. Ballet dancers have the ability to transport an audience to another world.




Belly dance is a unique form of dance characterized by sharp, rolling movements of the hips and abdomen. The true origins of belly dancing are debated among enthusiasts.

Jazz is a fun dance style that relies heavily on originality and improvisation. Many jazz dancers mix different styles into their dancing, incorporating their own expression. Jazz dancing often uses bold, dramatic body movements, including body isolations and contractions.

Latin dance is a fast-paced, often sensual, partner dance characterized by sexy hip movements. However, hip movements are not intentional in any of the Latin dances. The hip motion is a natural consequence of changing weight from one foot to the other.

"Let me dance you to life
Hold me and I'll be yours
The touch of your hands
The intricacy of my movements
The orchestrate playing to the tunes of the Waltz
Fingers entangled in yours...
Swaying away...
Let me dance you to life"

In India, dance ranges from the classical form of dancing like Kathak, Bharatnatyam, Kuchipuddi, Oddissi to various others like free-stlye bollywood dances.

And in India, dance is considered to be divine in origin. The cosmic dance of Lord Shiva(Nataraj), Tandava is believed to encompass creation, preservation and destruction. The dance is a pictorial allegory of the five principle manifestations of eternal energy — creation, destruction, preservation, salvation, and illusion. The dance of Shiva also represents his five activities: 'Shrishti' (creation, evolution); 'Sthiti' (preservation, support); 'Samhara' (destruction, evolution); 'Tirobhava' (illusion); and 'Anugraha' (release, emancipation, grace).The term "Nataraj" means "King of Dancers" (Sanskrit nata = dance; raja = king).

The dances of Kali, the dark and fierce Goddess of destruction, are very significant.She danced herself into a frenzy until she realized she almost danced Shiva to death.

Krishna is one of the most popular dancing divinites of the Hindus.Rasalila is the traditional dance custom of Krishna with the Radha and the Gopis.The term, `rasa` means emotion or performance and `lila` is a concept from Hinduism, which roughly translates to `play or lila of the dance or rasa`. Thus, Rasa Dance is known as the Dance of Divine Love.

Indian dance is very sensous but the experience of ananda(bliss) it evokes is spiritual. Rasa(mood or flavour) as the cause of ananda(bliss) is considered fundamental essence of beauty and harmony in Indian aesthetics. Vbhava(cause of emotion), anubhava(effect of emotion) and sanchari bhava(subordinate emotions) consitute the state of rasa. These in their respective order change the sthayi bhava (primary emotion) into rasa or bliss. All dance forms are thus structured around the nine rasas or emotions, hasya(happiness), krodha(anger), bhibasta(disgust), bhaya(fear), shoka (sorrow), viram(courage), karuna (compassion), adbhuta(wonder) and shanta (serenity). All dance forms follow the same hand gesture or hasta mudras for each of these rasas.

"Let me dance you to life
Look deep into my eyes
Breaths weaving the sound of music
Take me high onto the sky
Walk me to the stair-way of the moon
Where the angels sing for thee
And the Gods shower the petals of bliss
When we surrender ourselves
In the sublime beauty of the night
Let me dance you to life"

I am crazily in love with dance....but unfornately, I have never been able to learn any of the dance forms. I wish, sometime, I get the opportunity to learn a few of the dance forms and attain this highest form of pleasure :)

Yet Another Year...Oops New Year:)

"Mein khuda ki talaash mein nikla, toh khud ko pa liya.
Khud ki talaash mein nikla, toh khuda ko pa liya"

A perfect couplet to start a new year post. Wish everyone a great new year!!

Randomized...

Sun's shining

Shining eyes

Eyes glittering

Glittering smile

Smiling lips

Lips woven

Woven talks

Talks silent

Silent thoughts

Thoughts wandering

Wandering mind

Mind game

Game of life

Life struck

Struck hard

Hard luck

Luck lost

Lost heart

Heart shattered

Shattered pieces

Pieces of glass

Glass and blood

Blood dripping

Dripping with pain

Pain...incomplete!

Alpviram

As he said, its all designed this way. The blocks have been made to fit into each other with no voids. A labyrinth as it may seem. But when mulled over the yesteryears, today seems to be more than just perfect.Ah!! feel like a God, sitting right up there, watching myself fixing these jumbled blocks. Let me take a deep breath :) Alpviram!!

:)

Funny that a pair of really nice shoes....
make us feel good in our head!!:)

Khamoshi

Labon pe ho muskaan, toh sharmati hui ye khamoshi
Palke jhuki ho toh, haya ki hai ye khamoshi
Aankhon mein taare chamke toh khushi ki hai ye khamoshi
Chere pe aakrosh ho toh, gusse ki hai ye khamoshi
Nam hain ye naine toh dukh ki hai ye khamoshi
Ajeeb hai ye khamoshi...

Ek anjaane se mulaqqat toh darr ki ye khamoshi
Phir mulaqqaton ki baarat toh dhadhakte dil ki ye khamoshi
Dil mein hai pyar toh chahat ki hai khamoshi
Apna hai koi juda toh dard ki hai ye khamoshi
Rutha hai koi toh manane ke intezaar mein khamoshi
Toda ho vishwaas toh jasbaaton ki hai khamoshi
Ajeeb hai ye khamoshi...

Kehte hain, khamoshi mein hi jhalakte hai ye saare ehsaas...
Toh ajeeb haina ye khamoshi...

Chanda aur Chandni

Pyaar ke do nagme...Chanda aur Chandni...
Chanda ne ek roz chandni se pucha...
Tum hamesha mere saath kyu rehti ho?
Chandni ko ye sun ke accha nai laga...kyunki chandni chanda se bahaut pyar karti thi
Toh chandni ruth ke boli.....
Agar tum in taaron mein apni roshni dhundh lo toh kalse mein tumhare saath nai aayungi...
Chanda muskurake bola...
Taare toh roshni de denge, magar chandni ki chamak kaha se aayegi...
Taare rasta toh dikha denge par chandni ki chahat kaha se laayenge...
Taare toh daag chod jaayenge, par is chand pe daag toh chandni hi dho paayegi...!!!

DrEaMs....

An eye meets an eye
Moments just passing by…
And there you are…
An angel sitting by my side
Asking me my name…on my way home

Hold on…looks like we were heading for a joyride,
Moments just passing by…
The angel’s heart was beauty personified
It tried to reach my heart for friendship….
I tried hard to resist…and moved away from the exquisite
For mine was a stone heart shielded with armour
And never did I realize what it could mean to me

The show was on….
Moments started to pass by - strangely beautiful
The angel started spreading its charm
And I started having my share of smiles…
The bitter coffee started to taste sweet as honey
The angel became a reason to savour the coffee
And as time was fleeting away….
The coffee and the angel swapped places

We shared our joy, we shared our sorrows
We had been with each other in the highs and in the lows
The angel became my support who could hold me, caress me, scold me, listen to me, be with me…
Happiness knew no bounds….
And we were enjoying this roller coaster ride…singing, dancing, merrying with each other
When suddenly I realized, it’s not long when this joyride would come to an end

My heart started to ache…
with tears to follow…
…wetting my soft pillow
I started to fake a smile…
For I knew not these moments would come to a standstill
I wanted to freeze the time…I could not
I wanted to ask the angel to be with me forever…I could not….
I wanted to tell the angel that the rest of the world woudn’t sum upto you…I could not
I wanted to hate God…I could not…
The angel had to leave someday, it was eternal….and I knew this all the time…so I could not, I just could not stop the angel.

Stabs at my weeping soul

And then….I just woke up from a dream.

Veeraniyan

Mohhabat meri jo pyaasi hui,
toh gehri meri udaasi hui
Zindagi mein hai tum bin........
.............. ye veeraniyaan

Ashqon mein jaise dhul gaye sab muskurate rang
Raste mein thak ke so gayi masoom si umag
Dil hai ke phir bhi khwaab sajana ka shauk hai
Pathar pe bhi gulaab ugane ka shauk hai
Barso se yu toh ek amavas ki raat hai
Ab is ko hausla kahu ki zid ki baat hai
Dil kehta hai andhere mein bhi roshni toh hai
Maana ke raakh ho gaye umeed ke ye laois
Raakh mein bhi aag kahi par dabi toh hai

Sune sune saare raste hai,
Suni manzil hai jaana,
Suni suni si meri aankhen hai,
Suna dil hai jaana
Mujhe ghere hai....
....sirf tanhayiyan,
Meri dil mein hai sirf khamoshiyan,
Zindagi mein hai tum bin........
....................... ye veeraniyaan

Made my day!!

Read this somewhere and it just made my day:)

"Cant understand the meaning of the word "NO" ! "

Attitude

“The longer I live, the more I realize the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, the education, the money, than circumstances, than failure, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. It is more important than appearance, giftedness or skill. It will make or break a company... a church... a home. The remarkable thing is we have a choice everyday regarding the attitude we will embrace for that day. We cannot change our past... we cannot change the fact that people will act in a certain way. We cannot change the inevitable. The only thing we can do is play on the one string we have, and that is our attitude. I am convinced that life is 10% what happens to me and 90% of how I react to it. And so it is with you... we are in charge of our Attitudes.”
- Charles R. Swindoll

Kehte hain, pyar ko waqt ki nahi sirf ek lamhe ki zaroorat hoti hai....

....par agar waqt guzar jaye aur lamha aaye hi na toh???

Home Sweet Home

Peace - that was the other name for home.
-Kathleen Norris

Home is truly the place where the heart is. Its been six long years since I have grown, become what I am in a hostel....Though staying in a hostel is an all together different feeling, staying at home is beyond comparision. And now, I can feel the satisfaction while at home...

As the sun rays perforate through the crimson curtains into my bedroom, I fail to suppress a yawn, breaking my fast over the night with a cup of bed-tea...mummmm:)

After a quick shower with loud music on..."Dream on"-Aerosmith and a light breakfast with the latest happenings on TV, I head for my way to the office....

hmmm, that was nice morning.....:)

-----pause-----

The night wraps the evening intosits arms, the boring day at work slowly starts to cease....I pack my bag, board the evening shuttle yet again to reach my sweet home....

Home is a place you grow up wanting to leave, and grow old wanting to get back to.
-John Ed Pearce

Now I get back home and I dont have to wear that gaurded mask which the world forces me to wear. The mask which conceals the communication of my mind to my soul.

The unheard words which my ears long to hear. Aloof from the usual cacophony, I am surrounded all by myself. Here I can sleep like a baby, dance in front of the mirror and then smile to myself, sing holding my fist as though a mike, cry for no reason - (sometimes u just feel like doing this), experiment on some new recipes, paint the wall, work on a collage, read a book with soothing music away from the traffic noise. hmmm, I can do anything without any sense of awkwardness and without any dread of ridicule. Yes! thats home:)

All Roads Lead To Me

Between mean and selfish people,
where feelings have no place to dwell
where emotions have to find an abode to hide
where every expectation becomes a need
where your innocence is taken for granted
where your simplicity is raped every moment

I have to find my light in my God...in myself....
....All roads will lead to me

Nights are long, days just pass by
Mornings are placidly calm, bright sun rays perforating through the misty clouds....and the dew drops on the grass appear like pearls.
As I walk through the day, to embrace the nature into my arms ....evening enfolds into its serene mystery....darkness holds me, evening pauses, pain doesnot lessen, tears no more fall...

But I have to find my light in my God...in myself....
....All roads will lead to me

One more cup of coffee lying on the table
Rain drops strumming their magical song
The water splashing on the window pane
....nostalgia arresting me tight....
my mind still stuck on the diminished note

Then this little girl dancing in the rain outside....
Ignorant of the complexities of a human mind...
Opens her mouth wide under the sky
Smiling away to glory....
Instilling a faith in me....for no reason...:)

And I see a light in myself....All roads lead to me

Smiling on the little things....trivial minds, quibbling matters,
I wave back the time and walk pass ahead.....

All roads led to me!!

Circle

"Everyday from where I go ahead I come back to the same spot again,

The walls I have broken so many times

Are the walls I strike all over again,

Everyday new towns come into being

Everyday the earth subsumes them again,

Earthquakes at least had a heat of their own

Now they just recur over and again.

From the body to the soul an endless desert

No sun, no mirage, no shade,

So many hopes have perished in the desert waste

Who cares a damn for the grave,

The pulse dies and flutters again

The heart's natural attribute is anxiety,

At night the night whispered to itself

To go on living is a habit in itself.

A rainbow is a bouquet of but one colour

A goblet has its own trajectory,

If mosques begin to stand at every corner

What can the shape of the tavern be?

Somebody used to say he is the ocean itself

When not even a drop was with me,

Now I write to all that I'm fine

Now danger too is absent from my destiny,

I read the lines on my palm

Like I would the Koran or the Gita,

In the confines of a few lines

My life is imprisoned like Sita,

When Rama will return I cannot say

If only some Ravana would come and stay."

International Women's Day - 8th March

Though there is no specific day needed to celebrate the integrity of a woman, for she can be celebrated every day, every moment...I still wanted to write about her this day. Gone past is this day now and due to work load I just couldn't squeeze out time to do this.

Just came across a beautiful site so thought to update it here.

http://www.touchninspire.com/woman.html

Hope all the ladies out there did enjoy and feel special and men - u'll feel more special making ur woman feel special :)

In love with love

Have been trying to figure out of late, what actually is this love all about. The unconditional love that we talk abt. The love for which or for whom you start doing almost any damn thing. The love which so madly drives one crazy.This intoxicating thing called love is no less than any madness.You suddenly start doing things that you never had imagined to be doing. Life seems so beautiful.

"Loving you is like
wearing my favourite cozy sweater
sitting quiet in a chair
listening to raindrops
watching the fire
its a clam reality"


You sleep with their thoughts, u get up with their thoughts and the whole day u keep dancing in the wonderland of their thoughts again.


"I lie awake thinking of you
trying to sleep
I dont want to end these thoughts of you
But, tommorrow will come
and I'll awake in your arms
thinking first of you
And I'll wish that I could spend all day wearing your arms around me."


U start liking everything that they like.You slowly become bitterly sweet...wisely fool...sanely insane...insensibily sensible...intelligently dumb.

"I love...
Well, a lot of things.
I dont love, however,
a lot of people.
But I just love you
More than anything!"


No matter how much you have fun with your other friends, u still want to be with them.Then you slowly break away from the rest of the world...loose contacts with almost all your friends. Their very presence makes you feel that your world is with you....and the moment they go, u feel as though your life has left
you.You rejoice in their celebrations, and somber when they are down.With all the follies in them, you still find them to be the perfect one for yourself.
You become so possessive as though you own them.....yes somethng like your parents, whom u own, no matter whatever you tell them, however you tell them, they still love you and you still love them....on the similar lines, this love that I am talking about tries to take the shape of a possessive love, because you feel you have an authority over the person you love.But sometimes due to all this possessiveness, expectations, and the need to be there with you every moment, your love becomes demanding, you love the person so very much that you might even start feeling insecure...but is this actually the unconditional love that I am talking about,because if it is unconditional then why do these expectations, these possessiveness and these insecurities....?We are never insecure for Mom and dad, are we?
ahhh....is this really love or somethng else???


"French kiss the morning
I want to lay down in a bed of roses
I just close my eyes
trying hard to capture the moments....paste them all in an album of memories."


May be this so called love turns into a lovely ego....yes, probably its an ego.....ego in the sense that u want to make ur love work out at any cost, even if u break up, u still want them, may be not for the superficial love that u think u have but just this ego that constantly keeps hitting at the back of your mind. U just dont want to take them off your mind not because they are not
getting out, but may be because u dont want to get them out of your head. Of perhaps you are just in love with the idea of love.
So does that mean that love makes your stubborn and adamant?
Is this called falling in love?Nope I dont think so.....may be, one just needs to rise in love and not fall in love...:)
And may be....
....."Love is not about finding the right person, but creating the right relationship..Its not about how much love u HAVE in the BEGINNING, but how much love u BUILD in the END..."

2005 - A retrospection

hmmm...this post was long overdue......2005 have passed and I havent updated anything here .....but just a little retrospection of how this 2005 had been for me.....

2005 was when.........
when I wrote my last B.E. paper.........
when I passed out of college....
when I made amazing friends.....
when I moved to a new city.....
when I celebrated my 22nd birthday....
when I had fallen in love........

2005 was when
when I made mistakes
when I made life descisions.......
when these decisions turned out to be a tragedy...
when I felt lonely ....
when I learnt to be stronger.....
when I realised that everything happens for a reason.....
when I learnt to cool down my anger.....
when I felt so glad and happy to be the way I am....
when I had serious talks with dad.....
when I cried miserably for myself…….
When I was jobless all the time in office ……..
When I just loitered in and around the streets of Bangalore for no reason...
When I had put budget for the next month (but strictly not following it)....
When I attended those late night calls.......

I guess the list is endless and it would go on and on....life is just full of experiences....and when these experiences are unpredictable, life becomes all the more fun to live.


2006.......one more year.....a year to....
to smile........
to let people know how much u care...
to learn from mistakes.......
to follow dreams.......
to fight against everything for dreams to come true.....
to be more confident.........
to be more strong at heart and mind.....
to enrich knowledge.........
to make others happy.......

....this is again endless.....:)

All The Very Best To Me For The Year to Come.....:)